On Honesty

Here goes nothing. It’s been a wild ride this month. I feel like now that we’re getting close to 3 months in to the trip, it’s actually really starting. Like the reality that this is my new reality is beginning to set in. As I settle in to it, a deeper realization surfaces. The reality of the trip is that it’s like a present moment bootcamp. If it’s not obvious or apparent, I am certainly hanging on by a thread. I seem to have less and less control over the direction of the trip or the ways how everything is…

On Ego Negotiation

We begin with a quote. This quote greets me every morning as I unlock my phone as a reminder. The quote is from Elon Musk, founder of Paypal, Tesla, and SpaceX. It is in reference to the fact that the first 3 of SpaceX’s rocket launches exploded. Musk personally lost $200 million in those explosions. And it goes a little somethin’ like this, kick it: That’s how I feel. I hope and pray that all goes well but I don’t really care, deep down. If everything goes to hell, I will continue. If I become bloody and battered, I will…